Had I Known Before !

Disclaimer: This Article is gonna be nothing like before ! Because after the last article I sought suggestions of people from quite different perspectives and I would like to see through it that their advises are put to good use. 
And as a challenge I would like to implement all 4 of those people's advises in this article itself!
Although it is long, nevertheless(pun intended, although not visible) Here it goes.

My life is worth the living only because I can use it to help out others who are lost; Lost somewhere or the other. Either running after money or running away from someone who they owe it to. Running to catch time, finding it slipping through their fingers yet again. Submerged in oceans of lust not knowing that that 'touch' cannot give them what they are looking for. Same is the case with the taste of the food on our tongues, with the motion pictures in front of our eyes, music that we listen to and fragrances that we smell. They cannot but dissapoint you in giving joy !

My life is worth the living because I can help out not only others but even myself, when I am lost.

Once upon a time in a very real world, I existed. Truly speaking - "I" + "existed". Just born the normal way, the future was planned and Death was an inevitable doom I had to suffer one day!
I too was caught in, "that if this then it would be" all over and I can finally relax, and put hard work to a definitive hold. I studied two years of my life in the hope that I will never have to study as much again if I got into a good college! - UNTRUE!

Let us cut the chase short

Initially.. I did use to do loads of disreputable acts - BAD BAD BAD ! 
y = (-c) + sin(t) ; |c| >> 1;

Art of Living happened!  in 12th standard for the first time, it was like catching a glimpse of the intermittent striking of the fluorescent tube after you switch it off. You can swear it is real, you know it is there but still there is a part of you that is still not sure.

DCE(DTU) happened - 5 seniors walk into class; AOL AOL AOL. I sign up for the program.
The game dynamics change; equations are replaced!
y = (t) + sin(t); 
On the rise since then!

So what is this stuff about Had I known before! 

You know it is one thing to do the AOL program. Do a couple of high level programs also. Get into volunteering activities. But it is totally "on an other planet" thingy to chose a Master in Life.

Or to put myself better and correctly it is totally on an other plant thingy that you have been chosen by a Master in this lifetime!

The realization is rather a subtle one there were moments when u were not sure if this is it; and now there are moments u think of him and tears well up in your eyes, the throat chokes, the heart opens up to give more and receive in amounts larger than what u could think for yourself.

Thinking to myself a while back that what could be worth doing in this lifetime (read : what this life could be worth), knowing the impermanence of it. The answer was to make the people I leave behind more happier than they already are. What else could it be more worth of. And there is only one person who I can without doubt attribute this to. And I am utterly grateful to him for taking charge of this life of mine.
Not one day passes by when I do not think if this change could have been brought in earlier. Well I know, that this was how it was meant to be and if it hadn't there might have been a post "Had I done this and that before AOL". 
I think what if there was no BAD BAD BAD; knowing that, if I had not gone through my fair share of debauchery, the talents I have got to offer would not have been there. Not questioning the course of events, the wonder still remains in my mind - What if ! I had known before !

Everything around is changing at the very moment. These principles, fundamentals, thought processes I am sharing about may and will change. May be even in an "ANTI - AOL" manner but what this man had made me experience in these past 2 years cannot be flouted by words, even if they are his own. 

So I am in; for a lifetime ! 

If you must know what the suggestions were
Mugdha Kabra asked me to not frame much, just flow with the writing because the first draft is the best one.
So as I promise to myself I did not edit the draft once.
Vaibhav Tripathi asked me to write more in the first person, which I hope I did.
Tripti Jangpangi suggested on keeping the topics fresh !
and Yatharth Verma commented something very subtle, which I too felt about my last post and i am gonna take him up on his advise. What he did tell me is something more of a compliment and I do not wish to brag.
I hope I did justice to these people!

With love and tears of joy
Manik
Jai Gurudeva !

Ted Mosby's Drumroll

Sometimes you get this inexplicable urge to express some emotion, laughter or a little sadness/nostalgia, maybe. Like when you are watching a movie, you know it is all pre-scripted, but your mind still reacts to the scenes. Either you completely control your emotions or you aren't able to control them at all. Either way you have lost the "greater joy" in it.

All I say is, become aware of it and then let it flow, that is the beauty of it, that is the enlightened within you experiencing the pleasure of the senses; of the mind.

Such great would be the flavour of that nectar, that you wouldn't be able to hold that infinity within your finiteness. It will ooze out of you, drive you to madness, pull you into nothingness; it will find 'you'.

There is so much ecstasy in awareness that it will make you cry. Awareness will lead you to that ecstasy. The ecstasy would be so pure, so intense it would feel like pain, but you would not want it to stop. You will loose control and plunge inwards. And as soon as you want to regain control, awareness again would be the magic spell. It will  establish you back in the centre. 

Try to recall How I Met Your Mother's Episode "Drumroll! Please"? Where in Ted meets Victoria. And the conversation that unfolds is

Victoria - The best part of any first kiss is the lead up to it. The moment right before the lips touch. It's like a big drum roll. So, how about, tonight we just stick with the drum roll? 

Ted - Okay.. 

Victoria - But we cannot kiss.. 

Ted - Okay (and Music begins)

 Voila ! 

Thesaurus.com straight away puts enlightened and wise as synonyms of being "aware".

Sri Sri says - "Aversions and desires come into your mind, then how much you flow with them or how much you hold back is your wisdom."

and that "how much" comes from your awareness !

So here I am expressing my experiences and diving in them again; becoming more aware. 

Because I know that awareness will make the journey more thrilling than achieving the goal itself; than the "The End".

Do you follow what I said ?

BECOME AWARE

Love & Awareness
Manik
Jai Gurudeva


P.S. If you are thinking - but aware about what? then I'd suggest you to go do the YES!++ course..

Enlightened English

Hmm ! So Here we are again. I am back to type more and hopefully you are back to read some more!
I know That the post title carries a certain enigma with it, what else could u expect, after all it is coming from me. But before I come to the part where I explain what that is, I'd like you to read a excerpt from my favorite discourse by Sri Sri.

Buddha - The Manifestation of Silence

When Buddha was enlightened on that full moon night in the month of May, he kept silent... He did not say a word for a whole week. Mythology says that this frightened all the angels in heaven - for once in a millennium, does one blossom so fully as Buddha had, and yet he was silent; he was not saying a word! It is said that all the angels approached Buddha and asked him to please say something.

Buddha said, "Those who know, they know even without my saying, and those who do not know, they will not know by my words. Any description of light to a blind man is of no use. To one who has not tasted the ambrosia of the existence of life, there is no point in talking about it. So I am silent."

How can you convey something so intimate , something so personal? Not through words - they cannot suffice. Many Scriptures in the past have declared: "Words end where truth begins."

Haven't you find yourself speechless, trying to express the inexpressible, explain the inexplicable, trying to make others understand what exists on a level deeper than your feelings and your experiences and found them not being able to grasp what u want to convey.


Such is this unquenchable thirst to complete the meaning in your words that you keep on speaking; but all in vain. You speak some and you think you are quite near in telling them whatever you want to say, so you speak more and find yourself a little more distance apart from what you actually meant. Panic ensues and you speak some more but find yourself more distant ! and then some more and some more and some more ...


Exactly like what is happening here -  I am trying to convey what I mean and I speak more and more but to no avail
( although i hope not ) !


So How does a Enlightened one actually communicate the brahmā jñānā ?

The grammar is what (I call) is 'Enlightened English'- using grammatically incomplete (according to classical English) sentences/phrases to convey a much more complete meaning, much "fuller" meaning.

Perplexed?
Remember the catchphrases - "That am I", "... but, I am" or those innumerable instances of written matter about the seer, the seen, the doer and the happening, the big mind and the small mind and so on.

For those of you who have experienced this, it is a fact, but for the rest I'd state - It is said that the words of the enlightened immediately translate into experiences. Touching somewhere down underneath, right at the core. Such strong is the intention, such strong is the conviction. Without this, truly no words even skim the surface of what is being imparted.

Those of you who are not yet initiated, who haven't yet tasted the "ambrosia of the existence of life" might rubbish everything I am talking about. It is okay! You can quit reading right now or you may even dare to continue. But stop and see; the words of my master have inspired great fires of wisdom drying out oceans of ignorance, establishing us all in our-selves.

And for those of you going "Aho!", speaking truthfully ( being totally aware of the fact that none in this world can actually speak the truth, but still) this whole exercise was rubbish. Just become aware of your master's words, live your life that way. Become aware of what comes out of your mouth. Reign in your tongue. Speak what is worth speaking, then this rubbish of Enlightened English would start making sense.

Even though grammar has rules, but whatever the word "enlighten" binds itself with, 

that is not bound by anything! 

En lightening English !

Love and Wisdom
Manik
Jai Gurudeva and Happy Guru Poornima.

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Let Me Introduce you to...

It was not some sort of divine calling or meteor shower that had triggered the events that are going to unfold tonight! This time the events leading to-me-starting-writing-a-blog are much simpler, as simple as kick-starting a scooter. Just the difference is that, I am the scooter and just as the scooter doesn't know who is actually kicking it, even I don't know who or what is kicking me to start typing !

But yeah ! I do not think anyone just opens blogger.com, creates a blog, and starts writing stuff (on a side note: challenge accepted). Starting a blog is triggered by compliments by peeps on how well does one speak and should write more and that sort of stuff. Still one is not ready until he/she thinks that they really have something to offer; something that other's minds could churn upon ! and even after so much there is this jump-starting required !

Enough said:
So Here I am officially initiating you into the world of my thoughts and much more! Welcome !
I promise you this journey would never be without flavor and hope that it is not flavor only that u are looking for! Because one has to grow above these worldly things !

Perhaps the hardest thing in writing a blog is choosing the title ! Just so that you know, I created a blog one month back with the title "Signs of Living" and I had friends telling me that it sounded too much like "Art of Living", and it was not aimed at that ! so had to drop it!

So the title here is "Aho! Niranjanaha" (Origin: Sanskrit)

Aho - an expression of wonder, an exclamation, not a feeling/thought but a state of existence!
Niranjanaha - the spotless, pure, untouched, unharmed ...

See, these two words represent something so great that even these two words cannot fully express it! but they get so close that one cannot express their meaning fully in other words !

This Blog is a personal diary, a platform to express, a place to learn, a portal to get to know me and people around me, and it would contain anything and everything that comes to my mind that I am not filtering.

But also, this blog is not a personal diary, not a platform to express, not a place to learn, not a portal to get to know me and/or people around me, and would not contain anything or everything that comes to my mind and that I am or am not filtering!

Get it ?
Simply I mean, do not form concepts about this one! Do not restrict it or yourself! Let it surprise you !

I just have one thing to promise that every post on this blog would be aimed at creating that wonder, generating laughter, deepening wisdom, uplifting sorrow....
BUT AGAIN, not even this !

WELCOME ABOARD ! The Journey has begun, the ball is set rolling...

Love and Laughter
Manik
Jai Gurudeva

P.S. - This post was to confuse, or maybe not even that; or maybe not even not even that, or maybe not even not even not even that .......